Saturday, October 31, 2009

Digging and digging and digging...

I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. After today, I think we have 2 more loads of gravel and then I get to play with my new toy. Is it sad that rototilling seems like fun to me? After 3 weeks of digging anything else sounds fun. The light will be short lived because after I get the preliminary tilling done, I will be digging fill.

We have really accomplished a lot. The work has been hard but fulfilling. After it is all said and done, next time we do it with equipment.

Until next time

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Where does your SELF come from?

@tinybuddha sent out a tweet today that brought into focus what I have been pondering lately. "As long as you make an identity for yourself out of pain, you cannot be free of it." ~Eckhart Tolle. Where is it that I derive what I believe myself to be? How do I hang on to what is joyful when this world seems to attack my stability and disparage all that makes me happy?

I need to realize that that I decide what has impact and what pain I carry. Nothing is decided for me. What is inside, I let inside and I need to choose carefully. I don't need to listen to the news every day if it causes me to be anxious. I don't need to constantly visit those things that make me hurt. We all have those pet tortures that we inflict on ourselves, those favorite demons that tell us that we are not what we are supposed to be.

I am not going to define myself by my pain. I am not going to dwell on those demons or external situations that cause me anxiety. I am going to focus on another quote @tinybuddha tweeted, “Things and conditions can give you pleasure but they cannot give you joy—joy arises from within.” ~Eckhart Tolle.

That works both ways, "things and conditions" can make you happy or sad, anxious or calm but to feel true joy or epic sadness it has to come from within.

I choose joy.

When I look inside and find my SELF, I want it to find it happy, joyful and stable so I provide that to those who rely on me. I want to be that kind of husband, brother, son and (sooner or later) father.

Until next time

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Maybe we shoud have put the garden somewhere else

As you can see from the picture I promised, we are removing all of the buried pea gravel where it is loose first. This is the clean stuff my mother-in-law wanted for her house. The middle is cemented in due to the clay they used as fill. Thanks City.

I think if we can get most of it out, I can till whats left into the clay to improve the drainage. After I get that done I can pull the fill from the lower yard, bring in compost from Lazy J's Tree farm and till. I am using Lazy J's because it doesn't have biosolids from the treatment of wastewater at the City Wastewater Treatment Plant which is a good thing. The biosolids give me pause.

Until next time

One post, one mistake

I need to apologize for double posting. Twitter feeds face book and facebook feeds twitter and twitterfeed feeds them both. So I triple stamped a double stamp and multi-posted. Thanks to those of you who let me know.

Live and learn

Monday, October 26, 2009

Daylight savings time is a pain in the early fall.

It is getting dark too early to get much done outside after work.

We have been doing the farm share from Nash's Organic Produce. Those boxes have been great and have inspired us to make a big garden of our own.

A couple of years ago we purchased the one lot park next door from the city. The city workers did not remove the pea gravel when they removed the play equipment. They buried it under a couple of inches of soil and I haven't even been able to get grass to grow there. This happens to be within the desired area our garden.

Sooooo we have been working on digging the gravel out. My mother-in-law and grandmother-in-law wanted some for their house and we have given them as much as they can take. Now we are piling it behind the garage. We seem to be about 2/3 of the way done (I will post a pic later).

I am having trouble waiting to use my new toy. It is more new to me than new but we bought a Troy-Bilt Horse rototiller. I cannot wait to give it a try.

There is a good thing about these dark times, it is much less tiring to talk about digging than to dig.

Until next time

New Blog

By new I mean brand spanking new. I have never had one before so I will do it wrong but you will not have to try and read my handwriting which is good. I will need to look up blog etiquette so I won't annoy everyone when I link cool stuff in.